day...day whatever of this bullshit,
yet i mill around it all the damn time.
has it really become so irritating
that everything seems
to remind me of you?

at least this audition's over.
no cues to prepare for,
less stress for me, but
more sadness and emptiness
ambush from stage right.

and at least i'm not stupid,
i knew--yes. i definitely did.
something so weak with no support,
no foundation,
just words and sharing body heat--
sweetie, you know that things like that,
they don't last long.

i'm not going to describe this
as another cliche "learning experience"
or "character building lesson."
no, it's more simple than that,
a coward with selfish intentions
bruising another heart.

this charade's finally over,
and i'm forcing myself to
not give
a
damn.