sigh.

you know that it's said that hindsight is 20/20,
how i wish that wasn't true.
i just HAD to get up and leave san diego,
leave my friends, my sister,
my life for the past two and a half months,
to a more urban area that i thought i desired more
than dear old san diego.

i got myself into this position
of misery and discomfort--
i wish that
dismal situations like these
could be erased and forgotten.
i want nothing more than
to be in the company of friends,
family,
familiar faces,
someone who i can soak their sleeves
with my pathetic tears.


back to sleep, then.