Wednesday, August 29, 2007

at the end of the day, i still have much.

like the huge sap i am, i saw my aunt the other day and started crying. if you're not familiar with what happened, basically last thursday i decided to get up and leave san diego (without really telling anyone), my car breaks down in the grapepvine, i got stranded in the grapevine, etc. etc. i ended up in sf. this has probably been one of the more traumatic incidents i've had, but my aunt put into perspective that at the end of the day, i am still fortunate. here's an email between her and i where she "assigned" me to write about five blessing in my life.


Well done Jessica! I'm glad to see the thought you put into this.

Will call you later today or tonight, just to touch base. You can let me know, if you like, what 3 or so priority things you got off your list today. Our lists never end though as something else keeps getting added. But having things prioritized helps the list from becoming totally overwhelming.

Love,
A. Nanci

At 09:57 PM 8/27/2007, you wrote:
So, five blessings. Here goes:
1. I am fortunate enough to have a higher education; I know it's really taken for granted. I was talking to my friend Pierre who attends school in Montpellier in France and he always complains about how the French school system really does suck (even though college is public and already paid for by taxes, so really his family isn't set back at all). This just kind of stimulated my mind to think that there are people my age who haven't had any formal schooling at all.
2. I am blessed with wonderful family and friends. You, Aunt Nanci, have been indispensable this past week and I don't know how much I can express how grateful I am. Family in the past has always been there for me, and I have learned that they are the only constant in your life. Friends have said things here and there that let me know that they value our friendship and that I mean something to them (of course, I've done that in return!).
3. I have a meal everyday. Never have I gone to bed hungry (unless I elected to not eat whatever was for dinner, hah).
4. I am in good health. Sometimes I think about my mother and how bad she has it with her allergies and heart problems, and I kind of think to myself how glad I am that I'm not crippled with bad health and feeling awful all the time. Sometimes she's in so much pain that I wish I could take some of it away.
5. I have a shelter, and clothing to wear. I am glad I'm not walking around cold and naked. I also have somewhere to sleep at night, not having to wonder where I am going to spend the night and where I'll wake up in the morning.

Alright, I am going to go indulge in a teenage drama show; I'm also talking with my roommates more, so I feel better about things. I'm looking forward to going home Friday, so yeah, you're right, things will get better. I'll talk to you soon. Goodnight!