no, no--

i don't want to give you incorrect notions.
you are too innocent,
and sweet--
much too kind for a girl like me
who is inconsiderate and brutal with her words;
i am going to hurt you,
i know i will,
and i can't prevent it
without damaging your heart.

why must it always be
that you are presented with something
that you don't want,
but you should--
only because it is good for you,
beneficial for your life,
rewarding, and all of that other shit--
and you never get what you want,
that which may set you back,
but could be much more satisfying?

...but i always get what i want.