stiffling words

not the phrase "i love you",
but the feeling of "i miss you" is
the hardest to say.
it's so strange!

perhaps i am scared of looking too pathetic,
or clingy,
or creepy, or too emotional.
i am not one to handle emotions entirely well,
but who says you have to?

names on a list,
pictures on the wall,
reminscing through memories--
they make me sigh.