i can only smile now.

it is so humorous how one person,
one young mind
of demented energy and thought,
has brought me down to nothing
and has pushed me to become
a changed person who is
wiser, more clever, but
a girl who is wary of all,
apprehensive of the kindest of motives,
afraid to establish anything
remotely sincere.

you continue to torment me--
what is it exactly that you want?
if you want to continue
this absurd game of cat and mouse,
dearest boy, you clearly have
challenged the wrong opponent.
i know what it that you like;
you just like to see me cry,
hear about my restless nights
and the seemingly endless
mental anguish you cause.

good riddance to you,
your voice, your mannerisms,
your immaturity, your ego;
your body, your touches, your music,
your smiles, your kisses,
your companionship.
i happily bid farewell
to everything
that is, was, and will be of
useless, careless, selfish, childish,
you.